Lately, I really find it difficult to settle my mind. I’m all over the place. I need focus. I need to sit down and paint, but I’m lacking the motivation. I would love some long walks, but cold weather makes that kind of difficult. Reading….who can focus on reading when they can’t focus on tv?!? I’m anxious, antsy, nervous….so my answer is to surround myself with friends. But really, is that the answer? I need to be okay to be alone again. I used to love my alone time, almost to an obsession. Now I workout, just because it is something to do and it takes away my energy. It’s just that feeling of not having some challenge for my brain to work towards. My challenge is gone. Time for a new day, move on, move forward, start fresh.  Easier said than done, especially when deep habits have developed.

1. I’m smart, utilize it.

2. I’m funny, make myself laugh.

3. I’m cute, get more loitering old men to tell me that I’m gorgeous (this one actually happened today).

4. I love. Focus on the ones I love, but remember to accept it in return.

5. I’m worthy. Welcome all good things to me, and let the negative thoughts go to the side. They do no good.

6. I need to stop focusing so much on the little things. Look at the bigger picture.

7. Listen to what people say instead of translating it into what I think they’re saying.

8. Relinquish the past, but also preserve it. Your experiences with people are special between you and them, and no new people in their lives will ever erase what you had; they will just build their own.

9. Space, sometimes it’s so important to remember to miss people, and let them miss you in return.

10. Live in the now, not in the “what if” or the “what should be”.

I can do this. I’ve been through worse.